my alter ego took over...

as you can see, a few weeks have already past before i actually got the "gana" to write in this blog again... i guess my alter ego took over again,  my hurt-bitchy-selfish- bratty self was in control... *sigh* but sometimes we just have to let go of the little bitchy person in us but i think i kinda over did it cause she was out of control... right now i think i can breathe cause now i've got a hold on her... cause now i think that she's finally satisfied with the pain and hurt she has inflicted to the people around me... i know it's sounds like i'm a schizophrenic, well maybe i am, but we all have our own little bitch persona that tend to take a hold especially when you're so frustrated with the people around you... and your good side tends to disappear inside and wait for a time that is conducive for her... it's that time that that other persona has finished wreaking havoc into your world... so now it's time for this other persona, the choclit  to pick up the mangled pieces of her life and try to mend it all over again.  And maybe she'd find some sweetness and happiness in her life again. Maybe just by looking at the people around her, people she doesn't know and people she knows, she'd realize that she has the better end of the bargain in her life... and she doesn't have anything to complain about from the start....