the start of a new day...

i've been unhappy for these past few days. hell! i've been unhappy since the start of my pathetic existence and yet i have struggled to live. why? because i wanted my life to be better. i wanted to show the people around me that despite what they did to me, i grew up to be a better person. well, better than what they are now... but alas none of those has happened to me... yet... but i am hoping that it will come true someday. i guess i need to look at the situation at a whole new perspective. Not like the self-absorbed, delusional, clingy, depressed, distressed, pessimistic, nothing-good-is-gonna-happen-to-you point of view that i usually use :P maybe i should start being happy, be satisfied with myself. be comfortable with myself. find joy in the little things that happen in my life. maybe i should just let go of every bad thing that has happened to me. i know that it's hard to let go of such things. i guess i'm scared of actually letting it go. but somehow i've got to, cause i've been stuck in this moment for a very long time. i'll take it day by day... too much anger is cooped up inside me... but i guess i better start feeling better about myself cause the only person i can depend on right now is myself... :)

and so ends the first entry of this blog...